Friday, September 25, 2009

Here's A Bone. Poor Blog.

Well, my poor, neglected blog called me up whining for some attention. I've been either too busy to write anything or afraid I might truly offend some thinking conservatives while taking down their ignoramus "death panel" friends a notch. More on that to come, rest assured. Today, however, I serve up a mish mash of randomness that is floating around in my giant Scandinavian cabbage head this a.m.

1. Speaking of thinking conservatives, I sit next to one at work. We disagree on just about everything imaginable. Her hot topic is being pro-life. I am pro-choice. But, can we find common ground in our opposing views? Absolutely. She is VERY religious. I am not. But, do we find some common ground in our values on which to base our conversations and a personal connections? Yes. What is the difference here between this dear woman and the loud mouth idiots featured so prominently on the news? She is interested in and respects the opinions of others while maintaining steadfastly to her own. She respects all people and seeks to find that place where reasonable conversations can be held. She, rather than claiming to be Christian and behaving like a boob, is a Christian with values that are in line with the teachings of Jesus (yes, boobs, that is what you're supposed to be doing- LOVING not hating and dividing) and she recognizes the hypocrisy of of the aforementioned others. That's enough on that topic. I love her to pieces.

2. I need to make some time next year to go back to El Salvador to build more houses. I think I left a piece of my heart in that little village last year. Every time I look at my pictures and recall the time I spent there, I get quite teary. Anyone want to come with me?

3. Speaking of teary, I have been missing my mom and dad like crazy. I think now that the bulk of the family drama is over, some more grieving for my dad is surfacing. Showing my folks pictures from our trip to Europe would have been fun. Some of it I imagine is seasonal. I'm always weepy in the fall, but mostly I miss my parents.

4. Must lose 50 lbs before our class reunion in October. F*ck!

5. Even though I am fatter than I want to be and it frustrates me to no end, I have LOTS to be insanely grateful for. I have a job that, though hard sometimes, doesn't require me to leave my soul at the door. Though I would like to see them more, I have good friends who would take a bullet for me. (We'll test that theory the next time I offend someone at a health care rally.) I have a marvelous and extreeeeeemely patient partner who puts up with so much of my shit that I don't believe it most days. We have not one but two homes, when someone I love very much is struggling to find one. We have two absolutely astounding critters in our home that every day bring us more and more joy. I am wildly fortunate.

6. I am failure averse and it holds me back. I don't care so much about advancing at work and taking risks there. I don't have much more aspiration in that regard. This is more on a personal and creative level. Lots of dreams, but spooked. Working on that.

7. I heard a story about someone that I have no love for who is sort of on the verge of self destructing right now. This person just really bugs the shit out of me and is selfish and cruel. I figured this day might come and always imagined that I would feel smug and righteous. To my surprise, I felt sad for this person with a hint of compassion. Does that make me a grown up?


Little Sister said...

1. Nice to know that Christian Conservative is not an oxymoron.
2. I would love to go to El Salvador with you...time and money.
3. I get teary in the fall, too...and I wish I could bring your folks back to you for a nice visit over coffee. Dorothy would have LOVED to see your pictures from Europe, but Kenny?
4. You are gorgeous just the way you are and everyone loves you!!!
5. You are blessed.
6. Your photos are incredible and your quilting puts the Amish to shame...sounds like you just need a place to show and sell your work..mmmmm, I think I can help you!
7. Maybe you are just having a moment of worries, mate, it shall pass. LOVE YOU!

ShannonK said...

Glad your blog started whining - I love your posts!

4. Please don't be completely successful... because I have same number to loose and feel I will be pleased with 20. I'm already pleased with the 12 - mostly because my clothes fit better!!

7. Yep. Also makes you fabulous and way better to know than the selfish cruel individual of whom you speak.

Mnmom said...

1. They DO exist, they just don't get any media attention, much like the other thinking reasonable Americans.
2. You DID enjoy that trip.
3. It's Autumn, and I'm right there with you.
4. You are perfect and wonderful. If it makes you happy go for it, but don't do it because you think you're "wrong" with those extra lbs - and by the way you wear them well.
5. You are lucky, and most of it's due to your hard work and wonderful nature.
6. To everything there is a season
7. That grown up thing? Happens to all of us.

brenda k said...

Can't say it any more profound than these 3 very heartfelt and accurate comments!

I am not sad this fall, but more reflective I guess. THis is the first September I have not spent in the hospital in two years. Then of course the month or two on the sofa to recover.

I would say I have about 100 reminders a day of that time and it causes me to think alot. I have not thought much about things all summer but with fall, it is hard to step back from it.

The weight thing - frustrates me too. Like the others said, just lose it because you want to not because it makes you less of a person. My drive is that I really should not have extra weight around my midsection because of all the surgeries. So I need to do it just for that reason alone. Personally, I don't think I look that bad - but I need to do it to just give my poor stomach muscles a break.

I got a book at last week that is now my food Bible of sorts. I have been eating my heart out for 6days and I have lost 6 pounds. I know this will slow down eventually but having a healthy plan SPELLED OUT in front of you has been a relief - even gave me the grocery list and its a plan to live by. Not just follow for a month or two before going back to the old way.

Kooky concept from the BE HUNGRY style of weight loss I have grown accustomed to. ;) If you want more info on it let me know and I will email you.

michaelg said...

Oprah, I mean Brenda, if you're going to recommend a book, especially a diet book, shouldn't you at least give me the title so I too can be slender?